Side Effects and Prognosis 2017-2018 (Lotus Rises from the Water)

Seizures Confusion Altered state of consciousness Loss of speech Loss of appetite Loss of balance Loss of job Insomnia Depression Suicidal Ideation Racing thoughts Palpitations Stigma Heartbreak EKG Rage Anxiety Isolation Photo-sensitivity Flashbacks Tremors EEG PTSD Telemetry Breaking the silence Shrink Sessions Nightmares Convulsions Telemetry Misdiagnosis Pills Withdrawal Misdiagnosis Pills Withdrawal Diagnosis Dependency Withdrawal of…

Hard Knocks

No it isn’t easy When exhaustion sets in it becomes a mental war between your will to keep fighting and that ever present voice telling you to give up Black, blue, sweat, tears, cracked and frayed Your outer appearance may look pristine to the world Your insides raw from the weight of all that has…

Silence

This house is my refuge on most days, four walls and a ceiling keeping me safe from the sun’s rays. The light scares me now but not as much as I scare myself. Loneliness, a constant companion, only taking his coffee break when I force myself to sleep. That’s when the changing of the guards occur….

The Deep Dark Blues

There are snorkellers, deep sea divers and creatures of the deep. You are somewhere between the first two and while I thought myself a diver once I’ve come to realize I pertain to the very last category. It can be dark down there, the pressure tight enough to crush a brain to crimson ink. And while…

Nightly Hauntings

We are surrounded by ghosts Look closely at the night sky Many a star there are dead Twilight is an illusion A veil to the other realm that is constantly witnessed A haunting which is constantly ignored

All Hail

After her death they called her a Queen. She was loved by all, yet she’d not always been easy to love. Not when substances blinded her and her subjects, reducing them to heartless cannibals. Their souls sold to a moment of ecstasy, kush, white lines snorted from tables, bottles drained like their bodies. Pushing back at…

The Storm (Air)

  Deep blue of the universe envelope this mind Fill up its cracks and broken pieces, help it find that little bit of stillness that takes away the noise Make a once crooked thing graceful with poise Those ragged shreds filled up with static Those wires short circuiting ecstatic Put them at ease, please Allow…

Water

    Swell of the ocean building Energy spreading like grains of sand Giant wave of antiquity barreling towards the edge of the Earth, grand Between shore and tide veins of magic reside Little glimpses behind the veil Betwixt mist the power trails Blood of the planet, clear to sight Strengthen spirit, cleanse dark, make…

Fire

Fire Awaken from your slumber, simmering one, Old friend I know so well and miss Brimstone has surrounded you for far too long, Let your anger cool like waters kiss, I need you more than ever now to warm my frozen heart stuck in between a beat and stuck between breaking apart Set my soul…

Question of the Bard

Mountain, so heavy, pressed into the Earth, Rocks die, turn to diamonds, they know not their worth, Grapes gathered in barrels and crushed till they weep turn into the wine that the wise-man drinks deep, To forge a strong sword first the metal must melt, Liquid turns to solid then blows must be dealt, Soft…